Coffee is Addictive

There I go again...

2009-01-28T22:49:00.000-08:00

So much for wanting to create happy memories....Why do I have to go and do something dumb again...now that i've screwed up...again...I feel like shit...no...i feel lower than shit...

Contradict

2009-01-17T09:11:00.000-08:00

I think I don' t know you anymore
I guess I never did...
I tot I understood,
I tot I knew
but...I don't
I never did
You never gave me the chance.

There are times when I tot I'm almost there
I tot I almost reach your heart
but everytime you slam the door in my face
It hurts...
I reach out but all I touch was cold solid door
How I push at it and how I charge at it
I got myself wounded all over and yet it wouldn't budge
Not even a little

I wanted to turn back, to give up on you
But this longing I feel inside just won't go away
This feeling I never though I'd feel for anyone
You make it happen
You're my miracle yet you're my debacle
And I love you so

When will I be fine?

2009-01-03T08:04:00.000-08:00

Again and again he hurt me...so badly I just wanna cry my eyes out and shut myself from everything....but I cant...I know he's hurting too....I don't wanna be a 'small gas' and left him at the time when he's at his lowest...Yet as I wrote this, my eyes start to fill up....my heart ache....my self-worth gone....and the words David say rang in my head..."is he worth it?"over and over it plays in my head...but my answer will never change...."I dont know...but I did everything I did willingly"
May be this answer will change one day...I don't know but I'm sure it wont change anytime soon....

I Love You

2008-09-11T06:56:00.000-07:00

So bad… a person like you
Why did you take my heart away without my permission?
I’m living with so much difficulties
But you don’t even know.

I know… that it’s not me
That I’m not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye
But sometimes can’t you share your smile with me too?
Even if it’s not love
Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again it’s the one word in my heart that I can’t keep inside
I love you.

Yesterday, I laid my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes, the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles

Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again it’s the one word in my heart that I can’t keep inside
I love you.

As I look back at your image
which I got so used to it
I say those silent tear-like words,
I love you.

Bleeding love

2008-09-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

Closed off from loveI didn't need the painOnce or twice was enoughAnd it was all in vainTime starts to passBefore you know it you're frozenBut something happenedFor the very first time with youMy heart melts into the groundFound something trueAnd everyone's looking roundThinking I'm going crazyBut I don't care what they sayI'm in love with youThey try to pull me awayBut they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the veinThat I keep on closingYou cut me open and IKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleedingI keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveYou cut me openTrying hard not to hearBut they talk so loudTheir piercing sounds fill my earsTry to fill me with doubtYet I know that the goalIs to keep me from fallingBut nothing's greater than the risk that comes with your embraceAnd in this world of lonelinessI see your faceYet everyone around meThinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybeBut I don't care what they sayI'm in love with youThey try to pull me awayBut they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the veinThat I keep on closingYou cut me open and IKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleedingI keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveYou cut me openAnd it's draining all of meOh they find it hard to believeI'll be wearing these scarsFor everyone to seeI don't care what they sayI'm in love with youThey try to pull me awayBut they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the veinThat I keep on closingYou cut me open and IKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleedingI keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveYou cut me open and IKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleedingI keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding loveYou cut me open and IKeep bleedingKeep, keep bleeding love

Tifa Lockhart

2008-08-29T09:06:00.000-07:00

I'm so HAPPY!!!! The guy I'm crush ng on says I look like Tifa Lockhart from FF^^That was like the BEST compliments I've ever receive from anyone... Sure I've always had people telling me I'm cute...pretty...yadda...yadda...looks like I'm from mix parentage and so on... but to be compared to Tifa in FF movie advent children is just too much even for me to handle...In advent children, Tifa is soo.... pretty...and on top of that, its my crush who said that!!!! *squeals* And baby, you can be cloud^^muakakaka....

Men

2008-08-24T08:16:00.001-07:00

If at first you don't succeed, try, try again.
- William Edward Hickson

For all those men who say, Why buy a cow when you can get milk for free. Here's an update for you: Now days, 80% of women are against marriage, WHY? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire pig just to get a little sausage.

Men are like....

1. Men are like .. Laxatives ..... They irritate the crap out of you.

2. Men are like. Bananas . The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.

4. Men are like .... Blenders You need One, but you're not quite sure why.

5. Men are like .... Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Men are like ... Commercials ..... You can't believe a word they say.

7. Men are like Department Stores .... Their clothes are always 1/2 off!

8. Men are like ...... Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.

9. Men are like .... . Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

10. Men are like Popcorn .. They satisfy you, but only for a little while.

11. Men are like Snowstorms .... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.

12. Men are like ........ Lava Lamps ... Fun to look at, but not very bright.

13. Men are like Parking Spots All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

If I was the one...

2008-08-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

If I was the one you love,
I will love you even more,
Shower you with so much love and care that all you can ever feel is happiness.
If I was the one in your heart,
I would keep you in mine too,
To protect you from pain and whatever that's out to hurt you.
If I was the one you chose,
We could be so happy together,
But I wasn't....
I wasn't the one you love,
I wasn't the one i your heart,
and I wasn't the one you chose,
I pray that I could bear your pain,
All the pain caused by another,
Let me bear them all,
The best gift for me would be your happiness...
Please always be happy.

Some people thinks its holding on that makes one strong but sometimes...its letting go

2008-08-05T08:08:00.000-07:00

I used to think that to stay faithful and to hold on to someone is what makes one strong. Now, I realize that it takes so much more courage and strength to let the one you truly love go... To place his happiness above my own. There's a saying that goes...Better let the one you love be happy with someone else than be unhappy with you... Today, I did something thats equivalent to shoving the one I love back into the arms of the one he truly loves. Damn it hurts...But I don't regret because I know her love for him is not any lesser than that of mine. The only problem is that she don't love only him. Did I make the right decision? Or will it hurt him more?I guess I did what I could for him... I can only hope on his behalf that she come to her senses and make a choice. No matter what happen, whether he got back with er or not, I will stay by him and be his own personal guardian...

For you, only you...

2008-08-03T07:24:00.000-07:00

He told me that he loves me,
But I love only you,
He really cares for me,
but i only care for you,
He'd do anything for me,
I'd do anything for you,
I'm thankful for all he has done for me,
but I cant help but love only you,
It makes me feel awkward around him,
and guilty that I couldn't return his feeling,
Do I make you feel that way?
I can't stop loving you,
but I could stay away from you,
if that's what you wish for,
Though it would most likely kill me inside,
but its ok,
I'll survive knowing it makes you happy,
All this for you and only you...

Love shouldn't hurt others

2008-07-25T06:17:00.000-07:00

It is said that love is blind,
When you fall in love,
You'd do anything for the one you love,
Its true that love is unconditional,
But is it really worthy of you to hurt your family?
To let them down over and over?
It saddens me that you think so,
My dear brother,
That your family doesn't matter anymore,
We don't matter anymore,
Is the love of our parents not enough?
Have you any idea what hardship they've been through?
All that to provide us food and shelter,
All that for us to lead a good life,
Are you not touched?
Are you not grateful?
What should I do?
To make it the way it was before?
Love isn't supposed to be this way,
Its not supposed to hurt the ones we love.

I think....I know

2008-07-24T08:00:00.000-07:00

I think i have a crush on you,
when i can't stop looking at you,
I think i like you,
When my body gravitates towards you,
I think i love you,
When you're the first thing on my mind when i woke up and the last before i sleep,
I know i love you,
When you're all i ever think about.

IT programs?!

2008-07-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

Dear IT Support,

Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0.

And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed,
Desperate Housewife

Reply:
Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind:
Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download
Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0.

If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1.

Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wav files.

Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall another
Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash
Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limited
memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.

You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

My downfall

2008-07-22T09:04:00.000-07:00

When you look at me so gently,
When you smile at me so gently,
When you touch me so gently,
When you hold me so gently,
I can help but fall helplessly in love with you.

What you did to me..

2008-07-20T07:32:00.000-07:00

When you smile at me,
You make my knees go weak,
When I look into your eyes,
I drown in them,
When you hold me in your arms,
I know it is where I belong.

A moment in paradise

2008-07-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

I know nothing in this world last forever,
I'm not naive enough to hope for that either,
All I ask for is time with you,
I can't promise you forever,
nor can I promise to love you still tomorrow,
But I can tell you for sure that I still love you today,
And I will tell you everyday that I love you still,
Till the day I stop loving you,
Though I doubt the day will come anytime soon,
So please let us cherish this moment.

Heartless

2008-07-09T06:26:00.000-07:00

What becomes of a person,
When the heart is tired?
What do a person do,
When the heart feels empty?
What is left of a person,
When the heart withers?
Heartless...

Who knows coffee is bad for the heart...

2008-07-09T01:43:00.000-07:00

Should I smile because he's my friend,
or cry because that's all he is?
If I could be anyone at this moment,
I'd be her so you'd love me too.

I wish I had the guts to walk away
and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most.

2008-07-08T20:44:00.000-07:00

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